I Am Still with You
Below is my homily for Betty Norwood's funeral.
The last time I was with Betty in the hospital, I read to her Psalm 139. It is a comforting psalm for anyone facing a dark trial.
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The last time I was with Betty in the hospital, I read to her Psalm 139. It is a comforting psalm for anyone facing a dark trial.
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1
O
Lord, you have searched me and
known me!
2
You
know when I sit down and when I rise up;
you
discern my thoughts from afar.
3
You
search out my path and my lying down
and
are acquainted with all my ways.
4
Even
before a word is on my tongue,
behold,
O Lord, you know it altogether.
5
You
hem me in, behind and before,
and
lay your hand upon me.
6
Such
knowledge is too wonderful for me;
it
is high; I cannot attain it.
We speak of searching God, of knowing God. The psalmist
David speaks of God searching and knowing us. It is this kind of knowledge –
that God does the pursuing – that is so wondrous for David.
To make the thought more wondrous, he considers how he could
not escape God, even if he wanted to.
7
Where
shall I go from your Spirit?
Or
where shall I flee from your presence?
8
If
I ascend to heaven, you are there!
If
I make my bed in Sheol, you are there!
9
If
I take the wings of the morning
and
dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
10
even
there your hand shall lead me,
and
your right hand shall hold me.
11
If
I say, “Surely the darkness shall cover me,
and
the light about me be night,”
12
even
the darkness is not dark to you;
the
night is bright as the day,
for
darkness is as light with you.
There is no place where he can go – whether up to heaven or
down into Sheol; whether the depths of the sea or shrouded in darkness – God is
there. But he is not a threatening God. He does not pursue in order to oppress;
rather, he pursues so that he might lead and hold; that he might guide and
protect. He knows David intimately so that David might know he is never alone,
never left to face the trials of life alone.
Indeed, David has never been alone, from the moment of his
conception.
13
For
you formed my inward parts;
you
knitted me together in my mother’s womb.
14
I
praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Wonderful
are your works;
my
soul knows it very well.
15
My
frame was not hidden from you,
when
I was being made in secret,
intricately
woven in the depths of the earth.
16
Your
eyes saw my unformed substance;
in
your book were written, every one of them,
the
days that were formed for me,
when
as yet there were none of them.
You see here the direction of David’s meditation regarding
God. He is sayin, “God, you know me; you have always known me from the very beginning
to the deepest level. You are not merely an observer of my life. You have
planned my life, every day. There is not a moment that I am outside your sight,
outside your protection, outside your plan for me. And you have made me well,
for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
This meditation then leads to three responses, actually
four. Verse 14 is the response of praise: “I praise you, for I am
fearfully and wonderfully made.” The
next two verses are an expression of how much God’s attentiveness means to him.
17
How
precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How
vast is the sum of them!
18
If
I would count them, they are more than the sand.
I
awake, and I am still with you.
It is precious to David to think of how much God thinks
about him. It is precious to awake each day and know that God is still there
for him. He is never alone.
The next response seems out of place both in tone and
subject.
19
Oh
that you would slay the wicked, O God!
O
men of blood, depart from me!
20
They
speak against you with malicious intent;
your
enemies take your name in vain!
21
Do
I not hate those who hate you, O Lord?
And
do I not loathe those who rise up against you?
22
I
hate them with complete hatred;
I
count them my enemies.
When I read this psalm to Betty, I omitted these verses. And
yet, they probably set for us the context in which David is having his
meditation. David is not sitting in the Garden of Eden idly reflecting on how
good everything is going for him. He is surrounded by wicked men. Perhaps he is
living in Philistia among the Philistines, having to hide from Saul. Perhaps he
is king and dealing with numerous evil intrigues against him. He feels as we
feel at times when confronted with so much barbarism and brazen disregard for
God. He wants them and all their ways to be abolished.
But then, speaking of the wicked, he realizes that he needs
to pause and consider his heart.
23
Search
me, O God, and know my heart!
Try
me and know my thoughts!
24
And
see if there be any grievous way in me,
and
lead me in the way everlasting!
And so, David returns to the beginning of his meditation.
See how the beginning and ending are juxtaposed.
1
O
Lord, you have searched me and
known me!
23
Search
me, O God, and know my heart!
2
You
know when I sit down and when I rise up;
you
discern my thoughts from afar.
23 Try
me and know my thoughts!
3
You
search out my path and my lying down
and
are acquainted with all my ways.
24
And
see if there be any grievous way in me,
and
lead me in the way everlasting!
He takes the same ideas when he was meditating on the
attentive ways of God and now asks for that same attentiveness to be used to
purify his heart and lead him along the way of life everlasting.
And so the psalm moves along the following path: meditating
on God’s attentiveness to the psalmist, taking comfort and delight in God’s
presence and knowledge of him; acknowledging the sinful conditions in which he
lives and asking God to use his presence and knowledge to lead him out of his
own sin and into the righteous path of lift everlasting.
Lesson
We would do well, as I think Betty did, to meditate on God,
especially his attentiveness to his people. Wherever we are, he is there.
Wherever we go, he does not follow but rather holds our hand and leads us; he
protects us. Our heavenly Father knitted us in our mother’s wombs, and every
one of our days is planned so that we are never outside of his will and
provision.
We would do well to open our hearts before the Lord for him
to search and to know. He knows us already, and what we will find, if we bid
him to search, is a Father who will turn our hearts toward him and lead us to
the way everlasting.
And I hope you caught in this psalm the verses that give us
comfort regarding our sister Betty. In the second line of verse 8: “If
I make my bed in Sheol, you are there!” David is not
speaking of hell, but rather the shadowy place that death represents for us. It
is the unknown, the dark place. As he says soon afterwards, the darkness is as
light to our God. There is no dark place; there is no empty space that is not
filled with the presence of our Lord.
Since
the victory of Jesus Christ over death; since his own resurrection, we can read
a verse such as 18 and know that it applies to more than waking up in the
morning. Death is but a brief moment of sleep for those who are in Christ.
Then, “I awake, and I am still with you.”
Our
sister Betty is more awake than we are, more in the presence of God than we.
She has been led by the hand into the way everlasting, into the glorious
presence of her Savior and Lord.
2 Comments:
I rejoice to know that dear Betty has entered into the presence of the glory of the Lord, but it grieves me to hear that her gracious spirit has departed from this earth. She was a very special Christian woman. My heart is in Philadelphia this week.
Betty came to Tenth through a conversation with Rick Phillips on a Septa bus.
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